Hi! I’m Kristine. Here’s a recap of how I got here.
After leaving a destructive, codependent decades-long marriage, I was suicidal, dissociated, and lost. My brain wasn’t functioning, my career was tanking, and my health was failing. Traditional talk therapy wasn’t helping me at the speed and urgency I needed and I knew I couldn’t go on like this.
In college, I had social experiences with psychedelic mushrooms and I was aware of the therapeutic uses of psilocybin. In desperation, I turned to this plant medicine.
In the fall of 2023, I self-guided my first therapeutic mushroom journey. I did five subsequent journeys that fall, the last of which was a heroic dose in which I came to see my true nature and oneness with all that is. This was the beginning of my transformation.
Over the next two years, I did a therapeutic MDMA journey, energy work, an Ayahuasca ceremony in Peru, shamanic healing, bodywork, breathwork with and without cannabis, reiki, meditation, akashic records readings, somatic work, 5meo-DMT, and explored a variety of systems and modalities. Mostly, I threw myself into disciplined daily practice and study, learning how to feel and integrate emotions, be present and authentic, and take responsibility for the quality of my life experience. And I saw my life and relationships slowly transform.
Sol Purpose is the first of a four-phase plan to live in alignment with my true self, contribute to our collective wellbeing, and accelerate human evolution. The next two phases are focused on supporting the visionaries who are leading the next evolution of humanity. Want to know more? Reach out!
A few things I’ve learned
This is a long, hard, rewarding journey.
The layers run deep. Don’t think one psychedelic journey will get you to your destination. Self-realization takes ongoing practice, patience, and dedication. But if you stick with it, the layers begin to peel away and integrate faster, you gradually begin to trust yourself, and you find your inner authority, autonomy, and joy.
Integration is a daily practice.
The intentional use of psychedelics and cannabis can help you see the truth about yourself and the nature of consciousness. But they are a visionary aid, not a crutch or an escape. Once you know the truth, you get to learn how to live that truth, completely sober, in daily life and interactions. It can also take months or years to fully integrate a transformational journey.
Everything that happened to me, brought me here.
Moving from blame to forgiveness to gratitude takes time and work. It’s a process. Once I realized that everything had to happen exactly as it did for me to wake up and fulfill my true purpose, I realized I would choose every bit of my life and struggle all over again. And suddenly I wasn’t a victim, I was the hero of my own story, and the “perpetrators of my pain” had actually served my highest evolution.
This is solo work, but we are not alone.
I would not be where I am today without the many guides, teachers, friends, and loved ones who supported me along the way. I am grateful for their their wisdom, generosity, empathy, and for seeing the wholeness, strength, and potential in me, even when I could not yet see it in myself.
Everything we need for our own self-realization is already inside of us. There are many practices, systems, resources, philosophies, and teachers that can provide moments of profound insight and direction, but reliance on any of these can become a crutch or an escape. I will encourage independence, experimentation, and non-attachment to any specific teaching, system, or method.
All of us are a unique expression of universal consciousness. Our only true purpose is to awaken to this and live our fullest, truest expression of ourselves. Only when we do this can we create something truly meaningful in the world.
How societies treat others without power and resources reflects their degree of self-love, individually and collectively. Self-loathing and self-abandonment are projected out into the world creating endless cycles of destruction, violence, chaos, suffering, and pain. These cycles repeat on a micro level within families, passed down though generations, and on a macro level across communities and countries. But it doesn’t have to be this way.
Ending the cycle of suffering for ourselves, our families, our communities, and humanity is so incredibly simple: just look inward. It’s simple, yet the process of self-realization is a hero’s journey, requiring immense bravery and devotion.